If Wishes Were Horses is an erotic film series derived from Himeros.tv audience participation that uncovers how individuals today can begin to positively influence gay culture with respect to body shame (size/type/ablism), masculinity and femininity (toxic standards that separate these sides of the spectrum), wounds that have been turned outward on others (lateral discrimination), and expanding the definitions of sex to be more inclusive. Surveyed participants responded with what they wished they had known or experienced, looking back on their erotic journeys.

Filmed in North Carolina, the goal of our transmuting taboo series is to allude, via the canvas of cinema, the proximity every human being has to be welcomed, understood, connected to, and remembered by spirits beyond and people present as familial influences in magnetism, character and metabolized healing. To honor our past partners erotically, platonically, imaginatively, and spiritually.

Created in collaboration with Coach Nic, this series reclaims sacred imagery and heals the religious wounds and trauma that gay and bisexual men have experienced around sex and sexuality. With videos inspired by the sacraments and popular bible stories, these videos are a celebration our our bodies, our souls and our pleasure.

Sure, kink is fun to experience in basements and dungeons. But dark rooms, leather and chains can make kink feel inaccessible to some audiences. In Himeros.tv's "Everyday Kink" series , we take kink out of the shadows and into the light - so that everyone can enjoy its many benefits. Kink can be a powerful tool for self discovery, exploration, pleasure and fun for all people.

In the high desert of New Mexico, a group of gay and bisexual men came together under a shared vision of connection and sexual exploration while navigating a global pandemic that has deprived many men of touch. This retreat was facilitated by tantric sex coach Brad Amberheart.

American Heroes is about assumptions of male power: where it lies, who has it, and how it is acquired. From the beginning of a boy’s life, he is told to “man up,” “be a real man,” “be masculine,” and many other harmful instructions that ultimately lead him away from his own heart. American Heroes is an invitation to dismantle our shared ideas about men and to see them as complex beings that exert not only strength, but a spectrum of traits - beauty, nurturance, sensuality, gentleness, and love - traits that only a real man could possess.

No matter where we have originated on the planet, life in a human body demands a dual process of understanding and accepting paradox: the unifying spiritual task of embodying a divided world. Each of us contains within us a continuum of truth - dividing ourselves into good and evil, light and dark, virtuous and violent, holy and profane, gore and gold. To embrace paradox is to resist taking sides within our fragmented experiences but to rest in the tension of opposites.